I’m Ready
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I’m ready to let go of all the worst parts of me,
to let them fall like crisp autumn leaves with grace,
so not to break when they kiss the ground.
I’ve become too comfortable holding onto self doubt.
I’m not sure if I want to let it go.
Automatically I hear every word ever said on
loud repeat while having tea and toast at breakfast.
Photographs of mother have been removed from
the walls so she can no longer glare with
judgement.
I refuse to look into any mirror in case I catch her
eyes while looking at myself.
For years, I have hid her in a dark corner of my
mind, only for her to appear uninvited at the most
inconvenient of times.
Finally, I’m ready to face the damage head on and
regain the strength she stole.
I’m exhausted and need it back.
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Sarah Robinson
Sarah is the mother of three disabled children, whose needs include autism, Tourette’s, learning difficulties, and a whole bunch more. Caring for them has often brought more tears than smiles and triggered her own mental health issues — adhd, ptsd, and an anxiety disorder — and it seemed she had no option but to deal with it. Writing all her thoughts down in poetry, be it the good, the bad, or the ugly, has saved her from many a dark day, and she has found relief by getting it out of her head. She hopes her poems can help others who may encounter the same feelings.
Her poetry books can be purchased on Amazon.
